I did it, and I didn’t know the feeling if it was guilty, pain, sadness or happiness. I felt powerful honestly, I could throw up all that food on purpose, but at the same time I was feeling that I was an awful person because all that I was doing, that was so wrong, and the stupid feeling that push you to make it even at school, that guilty feeling, and even after you have done it, you feel more guilty because you did that and you know that is wrong, and you feel like even if you threw up that wasn’t enough. Hope nobody ever feels this.